When Ellis Earnshaw and Heathan James met as children, they couldn’t have been more different. Ellis was loud and beautiful – all blond hair, bright laughs and smiles. Heathan was dark and brooding, and obsessed with watching things die.The pair forged an unlikely friendship, unique and strange. Until they were ripped apart by the sick cruelty of others, separated for years, both locked in a … a perpetual hell.
Eleven years later, Heathan is back for his girl. Back from a place from which he thought there was no return. Back to seek revenge on those who wronged them.
Time has made Heathan’s soul darker, polluted with hatred and the thirst for blood.
Time has made Ellis a shell of her former self, a little girl lost in the vastness of her pain.
As Heathan pulls Ellis out of her mental prison, reviving the essence of who she once was, down the rabbit hole they will go.
With malice in their hearts and vengeance in their veins, they will seek out the ones who hurt and destroyed them.
One at a time.
Each one more deadly than the last.
Tick Tock.
Dark Contemporary Romance. Contains explicit sexual situations, violence, disturbingly sensitive and taboo subjects, offensive language and very mature topics. Recommended for ages 18 and over.
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Have you ever read a novel that has left you completely speechless?
Have you ever read a novel that manipulates your every thought?
Have you ever read a novel so dark and disturbing that you can literally feel the bile rise from the very pit of your own stomach, but yet you just can’t get enough?
Well I have to say guys this is an absolute first for me.
I have read some dark and twisted novels in my time of blogging/reading, but Sick Fux has completely obliterated my whole concept of ‘dark and twisted’.
Sick Fux is as dark as it gets people.
It screwed with my mind.
It played me like a fiddle.
Mind manipulation at it’s finest.
Hard core taboo with highly sensitive subject matter, it drew me in like a moth to a flame.
I was hooked from beginning to end.
Sickening, dark, gritty, highly confronting, raw, gut-wrenching, a psychological and emotional roller coaster ride that I didn’t want to end.
A novel about the darkness of the mind.
We meet Ellis Earnshaw and Heathan James. Friends as children they couldn’t be any more different. Ellis sees life in color. Heathan sees life in darkness. Both so very opposite, but drawn to one another. An unlikely friendship that flourishes daily.
But they are torn apart, separated by the monsters that take everything from them. Their innocence completely shattered.
Both bound to live the rest of their lives in the depths of hell by the very people they once trusted.
But Heathan will escape.
Heathan will return.
He will save his Ellis.
Fast forward eleven years.
Heathan kept his promise to Ellis.
He has returned to save her from the darkness.
But what he finds is a broken shell of a young woman, shattered, her mind gone.
They broke her.
They took his Ellis.
It’s time for revenge and seek out those who destroyed them both.
Each one will pay.
Tick-tock.
Guys I cannot express to you how much I loved this novel.
Twisted…..Yes.
Devastatingly gruesome….Yes.
Stomach turning….Yes.
All the things that should turn you away from a novel, but yet just took my breath away.
It stole my heart, it broke me emotionally, it screwed me psychologically and I can’t rate it high enough. I doubt that I will EVER come across a novel like this again.
Sick Fux is pure perfection.
Heathan and Ellis.
Rabbit and Dolly.
You guys will forever be etched into my heart.
Your darkness will never be forgotten.
Your love will forever remain.
5 ‘it’s time for tea’ stars.
I could not stop reading this book once my eyes hit the first page, and I continued to think about it and the characters long after finishing it. The characters were so well crafted, I wished I could meet them in real life. Wonderful book that must be read by anyone into dark romance!
SICK FUX is sooooo good! I loved everything about it. It’s dark insanity makes perfect sense, and the writing is so fluid you loose all track of time, only looking back up again after reading these two words: “The End”. Certainly not for the faint of heart as the author doesn’t shy away from describing the horrific sexual abuse that befalls so many children in this world, nor the graphic nature of the events that follow. It’s a mad ride but it’s also beautiful in all its starkness. No one does crazy love as well as Dolly & Rabbit.
Sick Fux by Tillie Cole is one of my top 5 reads EVER! It’s dark, and romantic in a sick, twisted, disturbed kind of way. If you love dark romance and have zero triggers, this one is a MUST READ!
Holy mother of all things CRAZY DARK. The people that know me knows how much I love dark romance and specially Tillie’s books. The darker the better and if you think her Hades Hangmen Series it’s dark, prepare yourself to be blown away and to roll in pain.
SICK FUX is a HUGE MIND F**K. I couldn’t stop reading, finished in 1 day. I don’t know where she gets her ideas but damn the woman can write DARK ROMANCE like it’s nobody’s business. I’m so shock that I don’t know where to start writing my review but I better start with some warnings.
First, as I always advice the readers that to read this type of book you need to be an open minded person and don’t judge. It’s has some strong content and taboo topics. If your not sure you can handle and enjoy this type of stories don’t read it. It’s for the strong of mind and stomach. If you are the adventurer type that can deal with blood, carnage, violence, craziness, death in all shapes and forms, hard sex and see beauty in the oddest of places and details that not many can; this is the type of book for you. If you already read some of Tillie’s book you know what your signing off for but beware that this one is 10 times darker and 10 times more AWESOME
Deathly dark and decadent. This is one of those books that the rest of dark romances should strive to be. Imaginative, crazy and a thumping good read.
So dark. So good!
This is a dark, dark book. The first quarter is more like a black hole, an endless vortex of horrors – all light and innocence snuffed from truly horrific despicable people. I’m glad that I read a review that warned me what the nature of the darkness was as the warning label on this book never lead me to even imagine something in that direction and honestly, I probably would’ve shut it down if I stumbled on those unspeakable acts and not known how long I would have to endure something that in this world should not be labeled taboo but worthy of a death sentence!
But then I became truly invested. I mourned for Ellis and I cried for Heathen and then with all my soul I rooted for them to take back their lives and some semblance of happiness as they morphed into their childhood roles of Dolly and Rabbit. I never once felt repulsed or sickened by their killing spree instead I crossed my fingers that every last f*cker would die.
This story starts out with two young kids, one the light (Ellis aka Dolly) and one the dark (Heathen aka Rabbit). They are tied to one another fiercely and intricately. Life is only decent for them living on the Earnshaw estate for a couple of years before the gates of Hell open for both of them. Only the one can console the other, they are each other’s lifelines. But when that lifeline is severed and taken away, both go through 11 years of a new fresh hell before Rabbit finally is able to come back for Dolly and try to mend her broken mind. Only Rabbit has the key to open that door. And when it opens there is no place for them to go to heal then to unleash hell on those who were truly the sick f*cks and pay each one back with the ultimate revenge.
Dolly and Rabbit may still be broken but together their pieces are almost whole. Are they psychotic and dangerous? Hell yes. But who wouldn’t be after their individual experiences??? I found myself biting my nails a lot as the police locked onto them and started being only a stone’s throw away. I was so unsure how this would all end and pissed at the thought that they might pay a price when all they were doing was ridding the earth of scum that should never exist to begin with. Needless to say, the author played that one out right to the end and close to the bone. It’s gruesome subject matter that this book is based on but my protectiveness and hunger for justice for these two spurred me on and kept me reading nonstop. To Dolly and Rabbit, may you live psychotically on forever – you deserve your own brand of peace!
SPOILER ALERT:
The trigger in this book is very specific. You may wish to do your homework before reading.
Why in the hell did it take me so long to read this dark fuxery?
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Overall Rating: 5 What in the actual f**K Stars
Kindle Unlimited: No
Standalone: Yes
Steam: I do not even know how to rate this… but there is all kinds of sex in this book
Triggers: I am going to make it easy and just say all of them…if you have any triggers, skip this
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I really had no idea what I was getting into when I started this book. I had read recommendations that Tillie Cole is dark, and that Sick Fux is really dark, so I figured…this will be for me. Holy shiitake mushrooms! What did I just read?
Ellis/Dolly lives a secluded life with her father and “uncles”, on the Earnshaw Estate. She is a pretty little girl of seven in love with all things Alice in Wonderland. Tea (Only Earl Grey will do), her dolly, her mother’s boombox. She is a lovely young thing. Enter, Heathan/Rabbit. Heathan comes to live on Earnshaw Estate when his mother no longer feels safe with him in the house. So, she just drops him off with his dad, a caretaker on the estate. His dad does not want anything to do with him either. Heathan is already a broken boy at the young age of nine. But when Ellis and Heathan meet, there is an instant bond, and they are instantly best friends. Ellis pushes Heathan’s boundaries, but he lets her and for a couple of years they are happy. Rabbit and Dolly and their whimsical adventures. From the moment they meet it becomes just the two of them.
But all this is just a false sense of security that Tillie Cole has lolled you into. Because things are about to get fuxd! When Heathan is eleven his father dies in a tragic accident and Mr. Earnshaw, Ellis’ dad becomes his legal guardian. Of course, his room and board come at a cost…a sick, depraved, disgusting cost. Slowly Rabbit and Dolly are kept apart. Heathan living out his own living hell just floors away from Dolly. Hang on folks because this is not the worst of it. When Ellis/Dolly turns 10, she gets invited upstairs to dance for her father and uncles, and folks it is going to get ugly now. Heathan, see’s Dolly after she has been hurt by those she trusts, and he makes a move and kills one of the uncles. Heathan is quickly whisked away from Earnshaw Estate to live in a new hell hole.
This book is filled with crazy, sadness, darkness, and twisted fuxery of the highest order. I have never wished excruciating painful deaths on more characters than I did in this book. I have never wished for two fuxed up people to make it than I did in this book. Dolly and Rabbit are like two wonderland psycho magnets made for each other. Their adventure reaches epic proportions! I was literally cheering for their revenge!
This book is bloody graphic, but in the end, it is two extremely broken souls that should have never made it, found each other, and then saved each other. In their own way, they save each other. I could not have asked for a better ending. If you are willing to fall down the rabbit hole into the darkness, Tillie Cole will be there with the Drink Me elixir to get you out…. but it is going to be one dark, painful, sick, bloody ride. Totally worth it! Tick Tock, what are you waiting for? Tick Tock…grab this book. Do not read any more reviews or spoilers, just jump into the rabbit hole with the rest of us.
Totally recommend! I cannot believe it took me this long to read this book!
AHHHH! I swear this book was made for me! Murder and Tea Parties? I loved this sooooo much. I bought it a while ago because of the AMAZING cover, but I I kept being told to read it so I finally did and OMG. It’s very dark and has some pretty graphic sensitive material so I would say if you are sensitive to child abuse, you might wan to pass on this one.
I loved both characters. Dolly aka Ellis was adorable. I loved her and felt for her. Rabbit aka Heathen though, he was incredible. The story line was fantastic. it was clever and satisfying and I enjoyed every single page. My favorite part though was the imagery. The Alice and Wonderland references (my wedding was Alice in Wonderland themed so lets just say I REALLY like it) tied to this super dark world was just so fun for me. The vivid descriptions were able to put such clear pictures in my head and I love that.
The ending was perfect for the romantic in me while the book fed my darker side. This easily a five stars all around for me. Shamefully, this was my first Tillie Cole book, but now I can’t wait to see what else she has.
I’m struggling to figure out the exact way about how I feel about Sick Fux. It’s dark and twisted and the beginning of this book was really hard to read…so much that I almost gave up. Luckily I have amazing book friends that told me to push through. Although at some point I felt like it was redundant, I’m happy I did.
The story is well written and the descriptions are done incredibly well. It feels like you are there right along with the characters. The location, the smell…you can feel it all. Unfortunately for me it took many sitting to get through Dolly and Rabbit’s story. I can’t really explain why I wasn’t absorbed by their tale. I easily fall in love with dark and taboo reads, I just felt like after one or two chapters I’d had enough…too much of the same I guess.
The ending seemed perfect for these characters, completely not what I was envisioning in my head…Hopefully one day we’ll get to meet Chapel and Henry and Hyde too.
I loved this book! Even though it’s a retelling of Alice In Wonderland, it’s a very dark, twisted story that will burn up your Kindle! You get hooked right from the beginning and just when you wonder how much darker it’s going to get, you quickly find out. I seriously couldn’t get enough of Dolly and Rabbit. I highly recommend this story. It is a must-read if you’re a fan of dark romance.
So………I am literally gob-smacked. I have no clue how I feel about this and my emotions are all over the place. There is so much brilliance to the writing, characters and plot….an impossible marriage of innocence and depravity. I’m equally appalled and enchanted. Horrified and delighted. No matter how I end up feeling, this is one book I won’t soon forget. One of the most original books I have ever read. That said, it’s also one of sickest books I have ever read.
Advice for potential readers: Check your morality at the door. If you have real triggers (not just dislikes), research the hell out of this one and if you have doubts take a pass. Prepare yourself to be taken into utterly depraved world………This is not ploy to suck you in. It’s a warning!!!!!! Beware!
If your soul is dark enough to dive down this rabbit hole, you are about to go on an adventure like no other. Tick Tock, Tick Tock!!! You’re going to be late. 😉
‘Heathan James was the genesis of my soul’s reawakening . . . a soul not meant for peace, but one handcrafted for death and murder and blood and bones . . .
Soulmates forged in fire, under the watchful gaze of Satan’s mocking eyes.’
Oh my god what did I just read?!
Heartbreaking. Jaw dropping. Shocking. Disgusted. Anger. All the feels.
And I warn you, it is dark. And majorly screwed up! Although it was all those things it was also brilliant and I couldn’t stop reading!
Tick tock.
Dark Contemporary Romance. Contains explicit sexual situations, violence, disturbingly sensitive and taboo subjects, offensive language and very mature topics. Recommended for ages 18 and over.*
Before this book Tillie Cole was already the Queen of Dark Romance, after this book
I think she’ll make it up there to Goddess of Dark Romance.
If you are not a fan of Dark Romance then this book is definitely NOT for you.
If you’re not sure if you’re a fan of Dark Romance then I’m going to tell you right now,
this book is probably not for you either!
But, if you love having your mind blown and questioning just how black your heart is after following a very effed up couple doing some very effed up things… then this is definitely the book for you!
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“If all else perished, and he remained, I should still continue to be; and if all else remained, and he were annihilated, the universe would become a mighty stranger”
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“It wasn’t anyone’s fault if he didn’t belong in Wonderland“
It’s hard to describe the great things about this book without going into too much detail because everyone really should go into his totally blind.
I love Tillie’s books because even if I know nothing about the story going into it
I know that I’m going to love it. She’s written such a selection of genres but Dark Romance is the place that she really shines, and I know for a fact that if it weren’t for Tillie I wouldn’t have ever even thought of giving it a chance.
“Time For Tea.“
Dark Romance is an understatement for this book. Tillie Cole is hands down the best author at pushing you to your limits in reading.
Cole always pushes me beyond what I believe is acceptable without me being aware I have gone there. In particular with a subject matter that is vile.
Tillie Cole will always be my go to author when I want something different and will expand my mind as a reader.
Sick Fux is centered around and emotionally unstable boy, Heathen and his one and only friend Ellis. Both have been left with their fathers at the Earnshaw Manor to be taken care of until the are of age. However, neither are aware of the dangers they face behind those walls. Ellis is a young and naive little girl who knows nothing of the world other than the story of Alice in Wonderland. Heathen is her Rabbit and she becomes his Dolly. It is the two of them, against everyone until one terribly night when these two are ripped from one another.
Rabbit promises he will come back for his Dolly all she must do is wait for him no matter how long is take him all she has to do is wait, and wait she does.
However when Rabbit return he does not find the same Dolly he left but a broken and battered version that he must piece back together by righting the wrongs that have been done to both of them.
Cole has written a very sick and twisted love story, but it’s a love story none the less. I am completely in love with Rabbit and Dolly and would love to hear more of their story as well as the stories of some addition secondary characters that we met along the way.
The world Cole has created for us in Sick Fux is an amazing representation of all that is wrong with the world but beautiful at the same time. Even though their love looks different on the outside than what we are used to, I only wish that everyone would have someone to love the, as much as a Rabbit loves his Dolly.
For an unpleasant and vile subject matter, it was handed with dignity and poise, but will trigger if you read this.
I had flash backs myself, but persevered, and I am so thankful that I did.
/5 /5
TW: Violence, Explicit Sexual Content, Crude Language, Psychological Torment, Mentions of Child Rape, Physical and Emotional abuse, Gore, Murder.
Yay, now that we got all of those cute little trigger warnings out of the way don’t come for me .
THIS BOOK IS OBVIOUSLY NOT FOR EVERYONE, and that is ok.
I honestly cannot believe, me, an Alice in Wonderland inspired account basically (here and on bookstagram, follow me @entirelybonkerz) I cannot believe I took so long to pick up this book.
Once I ordered it, it took me less than 24h to finish it. It was absolutely unputdownable.
Imagine the Joker and Harley Quinn relationship’s inside of old England, filled with Alice in Wonderland Easter eggs and inspired quotes and analogies.
My favorite video game of all times is an Alice in Wonderland dark retelling and I gotta tell you, I need more. I need more books like this. I need the gore, the mystery, the revenge, the violence and the absolutely batshit insane, toxic and breathtaking relationship.
Gruesome, violent, like all of my favorite horror movies and games put together with some spicy and romance.
If you did read this and liked it, I am probably going to like you, come talk to me. I wanna be friends.
Wonderland like you’ve never seen it before. It’s harsh, this here rabbit hole. Brutal. But when Rabbit and Dolly take down the bad men in Wonderland you can’t help but cheer them on. Can’t help but hope with all hope that they will get the HEA they so deserve.
This was a hard read for a lot because of what happened in their childhood so please read responsibly.
I have had a copy of this book for a number of years now. Prior to starting Sick Fux I knew only two things. First of all, that it was dark, and secondly that there was a theme to it. The first didn’t put me off at all, however, I wasn’t certain how the author would make the connection between a well-known children’s story and this storyline – which kept me stalling. I am now wishing I hadn’t hesitated reading this book as it is brilliant, and those links I worried about couldn’t have been more perfect for Ellis and Heathan’s story.
What I will say is that it is a dark read. There are some uncomfortable moments in the storyline but I felt that the author wrote this story perfectly from start to finish. The title of the book couldn’t be more perfect and the cover image also.
What I won’t say is anything about the storyline. I loved going in blind. I had no idea what to expect and this made my reading experience so much more. This story brought out so many emotions in me, and I do love reading a book that makes me feel.
Sick Fux is not for the fainthearted. There will be triggers for some readers so please be aware of this. For those who do decide to read this twisted and unique story, you are embarking on one hell of a ride so buckle up! I’d love to see two of the secondary characters have their stories told – maybe one day!
I highly recommend you don’t delay reading Ellis and Heathan’s story because time is ticking….. Tick Tock.
I’ve read this book some years ago and it wasn’t exactly my cup of tea (sorry, I’ll stop…) but I kept seeing people talking about how much they loved this book that I decided to go for a reread and give it a second chance.
Heathen and Ellis, or Rabbit and Dolly, are completely messed up but who can blame them after everything they had to deal with in their childhood? I really loved to see how they were so crazy good (or bad, depending of the point of view) together and for each other.
This book is seriously dark but I ended up really enjoying it. I’m happy I decided to reread it.
What to even say?
This book is disturbing and beautiful and I loved the Alice in Wonderland-esk imagery portrayed.
It is Alice in Wonderland meets Spike and Drusilla meets Sleepers meets Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas.
I won’t soon be forgetting about Rabbit and Dolly.