When you have a perfect marriage, only an impossible reconnection could make you risk it all. From USA Today best-selling author Marni Mann comes Even If It Hurts, an emotionally charged contemporary romance. OLIVER When I met her, I couldn’t take my eyes off her.We were so young and so passionate.We studied business in the day and each other’s bodies at night.We always knew it would end with … business in the day and each other’s bodies at night.
We always knew it would end with the semester, so we loved hard with no regrets.
LANCE
When I met her, I couldn’t get her off my mind.
We were fresh out of college and ready to take on the world.
We fit each other like missing puzzle pieces.
And just when I thought my life was perfect, it got better. She became my wife.
CHLOE
I met my first love while studying abroad in London.
When I moved home, I didn’t think I’d ever fall in love again.
Until I met him. The man who became my husband.
The one I promised a lifetime to.
Then, my first love came back into my life …
And I realized that love was bigger than any one man.
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REVIEW: 5 Heartbreaking Stars
“I should have known, kissing you once would never be enough.”
*~* SPOILER FREE REVIEW *~*
There are only a handful of books that I’ve been able to open up and feel an immediate emotional connection to within the first two paragraphs. Any author that can emote a story so heavily with just their words is an author that’s going to give me a story I want to explore deeper. A couple I know I need to meet. A love I desperately need to experience. That’s exactly what I got with Even if it Hurts by Marni Mann. Immediately upon jumping in, her words painted a picture as an amazing love emerged. Absolutely breathtaking.
But also heartbreaking.
You know those books we all feel so lucky to fall into? The ones that tell a story that catches our breath and moves our hearts? Well, it was my turn. I fell and I fell hard. The love in this book was one that spanned years, surpassed logic, and defied common sense of the heart and mind. But that can’t and won’t negate the intensity of the topic at hand, nor will it go down easily with others.
I realize that many people are going to struggle with this one, and rightfully so – it’s not an easy subject to accept, but I also know it’s not my story to judge. It’s my chance to live and feel emotions that were so extraordinarily told within a heart that was tangled up between two men, and I very definitely did. I liked that it wasn’t black and white. I liked that it wasn’t easily spelled out. I loved that it was honest emotions fighting moral responsibility. That internal battle that pulled at my heartstrings and lead me through a very emotional and passionate story wasn’t told with ease, but with a pain that radiated throughout the pages. This one hurt my heart. I felt the turmoil. I had tears in my eyes at one point. It wasn’t an easy journey, but it was an impactful one.
I got completely caught up watching Chloe discover not only a new world, but discovering love in it’s purest form as well. Unhindered and without borders, love can make your eyes dance and your heart skip a beat. That’s exactly how I felt as I watched Chloe fall in love for the first time. When her circumstances changed, which added a new dynamic to her story, that allowed me to witness an emotion that I’ve never personally known as her heart struggled to gain purchase on what was right for her. That journey was what it was all about, and I feel like Mann nailed it with this story. Emotionally heavy, but superb in every way.
Having said that, this is exactly why a triangle is my favorite trope. It is heartbreaking. It is going to piss people off and cause some very lively discussion (my favorite part!!). But I love the exploration of a love that isn’t easily explained. Hearts held captive by a love that is more powerful than they are? Yes, please!! Give me a love the characters are powerless to stop any day of the week. I want that hiccup in my breath. I want that lurch in my chest. I want that drop in the pit of my stomach. It is a polarizing topic, but that’s why I enjoy it so much. There is so much to discover about this type of love….what pushes someone to their emotional wits’ end? Why does the heart fight logic? I love that Marni Mann explored this issue with the depth that she did.
Her characters were relatable and I connected easily with them individually; all showing a growth and a depth that made them equally perfect in their own right.
Oliver – fun, loving, sweet, charming, caring, the most perfect smile to give an air of comfort. He had me smiling so much, but he also had me melting in my seat as I watched him strip down his emotions and bare himself with an intensity that would easily keep me planted. He had my heart the minute he smiled and whispered in her ear from behind, giving me all the goosebumps and giggles.
Lance – alpha, mysterious, deep, impatient, strong. He knew what he wanted and had no problems going after it, no matter the consequences. He also had everything at his fingertips and spared no expense in spoiling Chloe, which allowed for a very fast and carefree relationship without a worry in the world. It lent an air of freedom from the heaviness she was dealing with. An undeniable security in a love that was strong.
Chloe – determined, smart, beautiful, detailed. Living this book through her vantage point allowed me an insight into her thinking and her heart, so when I saw her struggle – I struggled too. I read this entire book like I was put in her heart and her mind…. so I felt that same pain. I was conflicted like she was. I was living in her world, spectator or not, but I know I felt every facet of this book.
It was all about getting into these characters’ heads, their emotions, and feeling that anxiety that came with decisions that needed to be made and I will admit, they were not easy decisions. I feel like this story was emotionally driven and that never let up. I felt and understood the pull as well as the anger for the actions taken. It was written so well and I felt every single thing. It’s these types of reads that make me scream from the rooftops because the discussion that follows is one that is so impassioned and intense. I’m not here to excuse actions. I’m here to understand emotions. I’m here to feel the decisions and the repercussions.
It was romantic and exciting.
It was amazing but heartbreaking.
It was sensual and hot.
It was brutal but genuine.
It was sexy and tantalizing.
It was realistic but devastating.
It was perfection.
Beautiful(ly) torture(some). I love when a book moves me like this and makes me feel as much as I did. This was nothing short of amazing for me and is sitting as a Top Favorite for 2020 already. This will be recommended often as a Must Read. Marni Mann is fast becoming one of my go-to authors for truthful, emotionally charged, life changing stories. I don’t think this story will ever leave me…
“I don’t like missing you, Chloe.”
~BEE
Wow! By the time I finished listening to this on audio, I was a ball of emotions.
Just completely blown away by this. The audio version was very well done.
This type of story isn’t for everyone but it’s my cup of tea.
It’s a love triangle. And for me, there was a time and place in Chloe’s life for both men.
The story is broken down into parts and the crack in my heart put there by part 1 just continued to get bigger throughout the story. I was so conflicted about the ending. Happy but not happy. I shed a few tears over it, I won’t lie. I’m impressed by the author’s ability to tell a story like this and make you understand all of the sides of it. Love isn’t always cut and dry. <3
5* Aching Heart Stars
I am a great fan of Marni Mann and the stories she tells. Her covers are the first thing that draws you to what is hidden beneath, they are always stunningly beautiful.
The story of Chloe, Oliver and Lance will pull at your heartstrings and tear you apart slowly. It is about falling deeply in love with your first love and all the firsts you created together. It is about finding love a second time round and being so happy and content only for it to be fractured when the past comes back to haunt you.
You will be gripped from the first page until the end when you will suddenly realise that you have been holding your breath waiting to see what will happen, who will Chloe choose? You will be transported back to memories of your first love and the risks involved with making decisions based on your heart. I was so invested in these characters and felt for each of them.
This was a beautifully written story filled with intense and emotional feelings for all the characters in the story.
5 Stars that my Heart wants to give sooo many more stars tooooo…. Even If It Hurts!!! lol
I had to remind myself that I needed to breath while reading. Ummm this is a Marni Mann book…this girl loves to eff with your mind, body and your soul!!!! lol
I kept seeing little comments about the book before I got to read it myself. I tried to scroll by fast, but the damage had been done…lol (really I just seen small comments, nothing that ruined the book for me.)
BUTTTT…..
As you know and if you follow my reviews, you know I love going in blind…I.DONT.WANT.TO.KNOW.ANYTHING..LOL
I don’t want to know if you laughed, cried, screamed, I don’t even read the synopsis 98 % of the time. Sooo with that being said….GO IN BLIND!!! LOL Even If It Hurts by Marni Mann was Aaaamazzzinnggg, you should definitely go in blind to enjoy it to the fullest!!! I can already tell it is one of those books that is going to give you that huge book hangover and you will never forget it!!!
Thank you for writing Marni Mann and can’t wait for your next book that will pull at my heartstrings!!!! lol
4.5 Breathtaking Stars!
This story was so beautifully written, it captured my heart right from the very beginning and never let go until it had wrung every last emotion out of me. It is told almost entirely from Chloe’s pov and it worked so perfectly here because you truly felt all of her hope, love, passion, and confusion. Chloe’s first love is Oliver, a charming, sweet and loving Brit during her study abroad in London. I fell for both Oliver and Chloe as they fell deeply in love. It was so pure, and sweet and passionate and I wanted them to be together forever too. But Chloe had to return home to Boston and unfortunately time and distance was too much to sustain their relationship. Eventually Chloe meets Lance. He is all alpha, commanding, and thoughtful. He loved taking care and spoiling Chloe, but letting her succeed on her own as well. They soon fall madly in love and get married. I once again fell for Lance and Chloe and wanted them to have a forever, romantic, epic life together. But what happens when Chloe meets Oliver again? When she is reminded of why she loved him so fervently? When she knows her love for her husband is just as fervent? Mann did a beautiful job making me understand the depth of the emotions and love these characters felt. My opinion and sympathies ebb and flowed and I didn’t necessarily agree with their decisions and actions, but life is messy, and never perfect, allowing us to find beauty in those imperfections. I was not sure I would like this forbidden romance, but no matter how many times I wanted to stop I just couldn’t put it down, which is a testament to the authors artistry. Narrator Ava Erickson, with a cameo from Shane East were absolutely amazing at bringing this emotional story to life. Erickson brings out the complex emotions that Chloe struggles with, and her nuances and delivery is sublime, I was completely lost in the realism of her storytelling.
Even if it hurts is a contemporary romance that incites all the questions and what if’s.
Chloe Kennedy met the love of her life while studying abroad in London for a semester with Oliver Bennet. However, their time together and the memories they created needed to be forgotten for Chloe to move on with her life now.
She got the degree, the internship, the coveted job, the money, but the thing missing was love. She wanted to feel like she felt when she fell in love back in London, all the feels, the tingling, the excitement, the butterflies, she wanted it all.
Lance Hamiton, attorney at law, ridiculously rich and handsome man, makes his entrance known from the very beginning knowing what he wants in life and never settling for something less. Chloe, being the woman that she is, accepted Lance’s need to be demanding and calculated, never trying to change his ways or his mind and their relationship was one perfect match.
Now the questions begin, is love bigger than just one man? Would you give up everything to be with the one you love? What about your dreams, your plans, your vows, your promises, do they mean nothing? Would you risk it all for love?
Marni Mann has a way of writing all the impossible things, and she delivers on asking and possibly answering all the impossible questions, giving new meaning to the question, would you ever?
An emotional, angsty read about a woman torn between two men.
Marni Mann brings the angst and the love and the hurt readers have come to know and love her for in Even If It Hurts, an emotionally charged contemporary romance. When you have a perfect marriage, only an impossible reconnection could make you risk it all. What a journey of twists and turns?
That cover is gorgeous!! Live tomorrow.
Super angsty! Love!
A tear-jerker, love triangle from the wonderful Marni Mann! Not to be missed.
OLIVER
When I met her, I couldn’t take my eyes off her.
We were so young and so passionate.
We studied business in the day and each other’s bodies at night.
We always knew it would end with the semester, so we loved hard with no regrets.
LANCE
When I met her, I couldn’t get her off my mind.
We were fresh out of college and ready to take on the world.
We fit each other like missing puzzle pieces.
And just when I thought my life was perfect, it got better. She became my wife.
CHLOE
I met my first love while studying abroad in London.
When I moved home, I didn’t think I’d ever fall in love again.
Until I met him. The man who became my husband.
The one I promised a lifetime to.
Then, my first love came back into my life …
And I realized that love was bigger than any one man.
If you’ve never read Marni Mann before, I’m sorry. I’m sorry that you have no idea how emotional her writing can make you. I’m sorry you’ve never been twisted into a tangled mess like discarded Christmas lights. I’m sorry that you haven’t lived through all her amazing adventures. But most of all, I’m sorry I can’t vent all the juicy parts of this story! (You have no idea how crazy I am right now! I’m typing this at 12:51AM. I can’t scream, swoon, or cry [loudly] because my husband is sleeping soundly next to me.)
I can tell you in true Marni fashion you will be holding on to your seat (pillow, blankets. Whatever tangible object is closest) right up to the very last word. I can tell you that even after reading the acknowledgements you will be waiting for the extra stuff like a Marvel movie. I can tell you that you will then dissect the entire novel trying to figure out where it was decided, where you fell in love, and where your heart truly lies. I can also tell you that no matter what your decision is it doesn’t really matter- Even If It Hurts.
Marni Mann had created a world in which we know, KNOW, that we can’t have our cake and eat it too. Our minds and hearts are going into battle with our wanton bodies. I’m just not sure who really won…
Besides, I’m more a cookie girl myself!
This was the first Marni Mann book I read it and I launched me into a love affair with her writing and her worlds. This is a love triangle with cheating, which might not be for everyone, but it was for me. Sensuous and illuminating, I will definitely be rereading this soon.
Maybe I am growing out of the love triangles trope but this story was not for me. I honestly thought that I missed part of the story in the very beginning (first chapter) because we literally meet Chloe and Oliver, they feel an instant connection (lust) and go out, have sex and that’s pretty much all they do her whole semester.
I didn’t feel a connection to any of the characters since they weren’t fleshed out enough. It felt like Mann thought of this idea and wrote the story in a day. Or half a day. As a reader, you need to connect to characters so when something bad/great happens to them you feel something. I felt nothing. Nothing.
Chloe was..one of the worst protagonists I have ever read.
What I thought laughable was in the very first chapter when Oliver comes up to Chloe he tells her that he can smell her as an American. What? That does not make any sense dude. The sex scenes were…dull. Read Talia Hibbert if you want to be blown away by sex scenes. Whenever Oliver used his pet names for Chloe I literally would cringe. All Chloe and Oliver did during her semester in London were having sex, and they thought they were in love. No, they were in lust.
One line of Oliver’s that was so eye-rolling was when he told Chloe that he fell asleep to the smell of her hair and cum…no. Another thing that is ridiculous is when Chloe moves in with Oliver after one semester of “doing the devil’s tango”. And then she does the same thing with Lance! Why?
Oliver taught Chloe that you can put perfume under your ears? What? Did the author really just write that? If you thought only Oliver could smell Chloe coming well you’d be wrong, Chloe can also smell Oliver coming. Now that is true love right there.
During the 95% mark, you finally get a POV that is not Chloe’s, but Oliver’s where you find that he now stalks Chloe on social media after she chose to leave him for the final time and has not married or had any long-term relationship because he still pines for her. He really should move on, Chloe is not a redeemable character to me. She had no repercussions. Really?
BLINDSIDED
First love, Lost love.
New love.
Lost love, Found…?
Each PART caused a totally different set of emotions.
This rollercoaster ride of upheaval had me in complete chaos.
My emotional mental state was pushed to it’s limits on Part 3, and by the end of the book, I was drained of all my anguish.
My hard limit was tested, but Marni Mann can suck you into a vortex of emotions that you just can’t fathom getting out of till the end.
This is the most agonizing read of hers to date.
A must read in 2020!!!
Reviewed: Jan. 16, 2020
This book is about first loves, last loves and yeah that’s all I got. I didn’t feel the emotional bang I thought would come after Chloe is stuck between the first love her life and her last.
Girl meets boy.
He is her prince charming.
Girl is a virgin.
Girl is no longer a virgin.
She heads home.
Girl meets 2nd boy.
She falls for him (of course).
They get married.
Several years later she reconnects with first boy.
There’s flirtation, and more.
Then she has to decide….
I mean it wasn’t bad per say but it wasn’t GREAT! I have read other Marni Mann books and they have stolen my heart but this one I just felt this huge let down.
This was very sexy and a little sad. This book had a lot of sex scenes which for one I was not expecting (not complaining tho lol).
A MAJOR THING I DID NOT LIKE was the fact that the way this character went about cheating in this book did not sit well with me. This character DID NOT tell her husband she cheated on him, but instead want to continue to do so and then after the fact still did not tell him what happened. -_- I’m sorry, but I believe in being honest with your partner even when you have fucked up. You not suppose to hide anything from them. So that definitely lost a star for me.
Other than that… this book had the potential to be a five star read it just left me wanting more out of the story so I know that this standalone did not do justice (not saying that is a bad thing at all).
I would most definitely recommend this book to anybody who wants a really good romance that deals with more than just sex, friendship, relationship, first love, etc. Its a very sweet romance with a mix of smut. (Just the way I like! lol)
4.5 Stars
Marni Mann created this enthralling of love found and love lost! I really enjoyed this story and their story of how they met and how they navigated their relationship through the years. The author did a great job writing these characters and giving them personalities that makes the reader fall in love with. While I loved following these characters I wanted more of them doing things. It was a lot of their feelings and their relationships. But my favorite part was the ending! It was something different than what I normally get so I just loved the unconventional ending! Overall, it was a great story and I can’t wait to read what this author writes next!
This is a love triangle like I’ve never read before. Though all may not agree with the content, it is very well written. I really enjoyed reading it and I look forward to what Marni Mann has in store next.
Beautifully terribly heartbreakingly wonderful! I kind of hate Marni Mann right now, but I did love this book! Well written with beautiful performances, but have Kleenex handy. I listened straight through and finished at 3am. Had to get out of bed so I wouldn’t wake my husband with the ugly cry from part 4.
Shane East performs the epilogue – be prepared and have Kleenex!!! Ava Erickson delivers a beautiful, sexy, heartbreaking performance. You will go on this journey with her and you will fight against the pull and feel all the feels!