I give myself to strangers.When I’m on stage, and when I’m off it.Whether it’s throngs of screaming fans or just one man, it’s always outsiders. People who don’t know me. Not the real me.It’s easier, because then it’s not so obvious that there is no real me. Just layers of lies. Then I’m peeled back to the nerve. Showing the world my ugly. Everyone sees me for what I am.Rightfully so, they hate … am.
Rightfully so, they hate me.
Almost as much as I hate myself.
I’m willing to hate myself for what I’ve done. To wither away into some washed up old rock star.
But he doesn’t let me.
I want to hate him.
He doesn’t let me do that either.
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I finished Censored Soul with the utmost respect for Anne for writing Noah’s perfect story. This is his story, raw, full of tragedy, truth, sorrow, and finally happiness. It’s full of a man overcoming his demons and coming out the other side better for them. It’s about forgiveness from those you love for screwing up in the worst possible way, and forgiving yourself for hurting those that love you.
This series is amazing and while I’m sad for it’s conclusion Noah’s story was the perfect climax for the Unquiet Minds series!
I feel like I’ve waited eons for Noah’s story, and now that it’s here, my heart is happy. But it was a journey to get it there. He is the epitome of a musician. Handsome, talented, quiet, mysterious, tortured. In this story, he finally gets to tell his tale.
“reality no longer wanted to wait for me to notice it. It was here. I was here.”
I won’t lie. I cried. Literally cried. I gasped. I smiled. And in the end, all of it was worth it.
Censored Soul is the 5th and final book in the Unquiet Minds series and what an ending, This was Noah’s story and it was a heartbreaking yet beautiful story and in true Anne Malcom style, it will touch your heart in more ways than one. Its a story about healing, about overcoming your demons, about forgiveness of oneself and others. These characters were engaging and will have you consumed with their story from beginning to end. The story was raw, ansgty, intense and honest and you will not be able to put it down. This well-written page-turner was a phenomenal read worthy of a 5 star status and I would highly recommend it to all lovers of M/M romance
Throughout the entirety of Unquiet Mind, I think I mistakenly believed that Noah was healing, was perhaps the healthiest member of the band.
This book had me circling it for a week. Really the only author I’ve read in the last year that broke me down more and more each time. I was expecting this book to tear me apart, and in certain ways it did. I closed it on the 2nd page, not sure what Anne was going to put me through.
In reality what I got was an author not afraid to address the issues that have terrified Noah throughout the entire series. And a side character all out to meet his man, only to get broken down by one of the things most of us experience at least twice in our lives. No matter what anyone tells you, those mundane acts in our lives can break us down and show us again how unworthy we are.
A soft, slow burn goodbye to Unquiet Minds. Noah would approve of it ending this way. Worth at least 7 stars.
Noah, sweet,complicated Noah. Such an amazing story. Heartbreaking,funny at times,sweet at others. The chemistry of the Noah and Gideon is awesome. They bring out the best in one another,give something that the other is missing, Gideon is the light to his darkness. I especially loved the epilogue where she gives a glimpse of the future with all the characters and their families.
This is the first series I read by Anne and I was hooked. I binge read anything of hers I could get my hands on. I am so sad to see this series end. All the characters have a soft spot in my heart, and always will.
Finally my wait for Noah’s story is over and it was worth it. The troubled soul in the Unrequited Minds band, I knew there were secrets that Noah has kept but until reading this we didn’t know quite how much there was to his tale. An emotional read this gives us the full story that we only saw glimpses of before now. Noah has managed to hide his demons both from himself and his band until the day an unexpected accident forces him to face them head on. Checking to a rehab is meant both to be a punishment and the help Noah needs, not the place he finds his soulmate. A story of forgiveness, growth and love, this is everything and more that we wanted from Anne Malcom for Noah.
You guys. This book. THIS BOOOOOOK!
Anne Malcolm’s Unquiet Mind Series has been a big favorite of mine, and let me tell you Noah’s book was the perfect ending.
Censored Soul is all angst and pain and hurt that shatters your heart, but it’s also healing and forgiveness and so much love.
Anne’s writing in this series just fills up my soul. While I am extremely sad that it’s over, I know that I’ll be rereading for years to come.
Anne Malcom wrote the perfect ending to the Unquiet Mind series…one of my favorites! Noah has watched all the members of the band get their happy endings and always understood he could or would never have his. But through such tragedy, he did get to meet his happily ever after. It was a wonderful story and I highly recommend it!
Easy 5 stars. Best of 2019 for me. This is my favorite of all of Anne Malcolm’s books. I love all of her stories but this one was beautiful from beginning until the end. I love both Noah and Gideon. They are so perfect together. I loved how they both had to find themselves and learn to love themselves before they could be together. In life we jump into relationships for many reasons lust, physical attraction and love. But if we do not love ourselves how can we truly love another.
Okaaaay so I don’t read MM. I’ve read several MMF, but this is actually my first MM, and I had to pick it up bc I’ve loved Unquiet Mind so much. Gah! What a lovely way to finish out this series! This is labeled as a novella, but it’s actually pretty long. Plenty long enough to pack in all the feels and family vibes that make me weep! I loved Noah’s book. I’m so glad he finally gets his happily ever after!
If you haven’t read the series, it’s one I definitely recommend, along with the other interconnected series. I love them all!!
5 BEAUTIFUL TOUGH STARS!! This beautiful tough story reached in and ripped my heart out…..held it, squeezed it, drained it and revived it back to life. Noah’s story was exactly the way it needed to be with all your emotions everywhere. Anne Malcom is definitely the Queen of squeezing your heart with her words, but so worth the ride. If you haven’t started this series it is a must….do it now.
WOW just wow this book will literally rip your heart out then take you on a very lonely heartbreaking journey of discovery before putting your heart and soul back together again.. The final conclusion to a wonderful rock star series this book is a triumph, all the great characters feature in this raw emotional story of Noah the one who has been there through all their ups and downs… now is his time to take the limelight and share his very personal and tragic tale. Anne Malcom you are one truly amazingly talented lady, who is so not afraid of tacking all the dark and disturbing traits we have and turning them into something special. A fantastic book one that will stay with me for a long time to come!!
I never tire of reading Anne Malcom’s books and this one is probably in the top 5 of her books for me. Noah has been a long time coming and I can always feel the emotions it took to write a book. I can read that she gave it her heart an soul for Noah and it was PERFECT!
Noah and Gideon are from 2 different world but seem to complement each other that makes them work. My heart ached for them on a different level but also soared and cheered for them throughout the book. Sometimes it takes you to hit rock bottom to try and climb that mountain to redeem yourself and not for anyone else but yourself.
I would highly recommend the Unquiet Mind series and all of Anne Malcom’s books if you are on the edge of whether or not to try them out.
Noah’s always been their true North, steadfast and constant. But they soon learn that all it takes is one mistake to make buried truths rise to the surface and poison everything in its path.
Can Noah and his family of friends survive the horrific consequences of his mistake?
WOW!!! This is an incredibly well written emotionally gritty story that digs deep into the truths we try to hide. As always, Anne doesn’t hide the ugliness society can have on a person. She makes us face the realities of life and the ugly truths people prefer to ignore.
Fueled by self-loathing, Noah surrenders himself to serve his penance. Creating his own “prison of blame, guilt, and pain.” Time will tell if he can fix his mistakes, but first he’ll have to fix himself. That’s the one challenge Noah’s been avoiding for years.
“I didn’t realize I’d have to face the worst thing of all inside these crappy yellow walls…. Myself.”
“We were all self-destructive underneath it all. Or maybe that was just me trying to convince myself my issues weren’t special.”
This story takes an emotional journey with the characters towards their healing. And yes, there is more than one searching for self-forgiveness. These two are both truly hurt souls with beautiful hearts, desperately wanting to be accepted and loved. This is seriously an emotionally gut wrenching story. My heart hurt for their pain and trauma.
“You never really know how truly broken someone is until you try to love them.”
“People that don’t deserve love are the ones that need it the most.” He said, his voice little more than a whisper. “And trust me, Noah you deserve it. I’ll convince you, no matter how long it takes.”
Will Noah find his redemption? Is there a chance that something beautiful can bloom from such tragedy? A fantastic story I highly recommend! This book is part of a series, but can be read as a standalone.
I read and ARC of this book. My fair and honest review is voluntary.
This book was about finding yourself, finding love in an unexpected place and the unbreakable bonds of friendship. I was gripped by this story from beginning to end. Noah has been my favorite character from the beginning and I have been waiting to get to know him and I love him even more now. I am sad that this series is ending but Anne gave it the most amazing send off!!! Highly recommend this book and this series.
God was this book a thing of beauty. It was the perfect end to this series of books and the perfect book for Noah, who has always been quiet and tortured in a way. Things are not easy for him in this book but they are raw, honest and in the end they are healing too.
I usually don’t recommend MM books to my gay friends because they often find them twee and I have to agree on most in the genre. This one really stands out though and I will be recommending it. It is a wonderful bit of catharsis for anyone who has ever been judged for being themself and felt like they had to hide it. It is beautifully and sympathetically written. It isn’t any kind of cliche at all and it’s a page turner from beginning to end.
This author really writes human emotions so wonderfully in a way that draws you in while keeping the plot interesting too. It’s a fabulous skill and gives you an amazing book you can’t put down. This series of books has been my favourite of this authors and I am glad to see it get the beautiful ending it deserved. Even more I am glad to see Noah get the ending he deserved.
I 100% recommend this book.
Censored Soul is the fifth book in the Unquiet Minds Series, although it is the Final Book.
Though this book is part of a series, it can be read as a stand-alone. I am a bit behind in this series and haven’t read the others but after reading this one, I am definitely going back to read the others.
The storyline was absolutely phenomenal, I was so obsessed with very word that was being written. I devoured this book in less then 24 hours. I think that’s my new record. This book wholeheartedly consumed me and I was so stuck in this world that there was no breaking me out if you tried.
This book left me emotionally raw and at times broke my heart. Although this is Noah’s story and after finishing his book, you know it needed to be this way.
Noah is Broken, but not one of his band mates know how deep the darkness is within him. The drugs and the one night stands are just a cover up for what’s really happening. They are his coping mechanism.
It was one day, that’s all it really takes.
One giant mistake lands him in rehab, where he has to face himself and his demons.
Noah’s Story is raw, it’s not sweet, it’s not pretty but it’s his story. This is the story that Noah needed for him to find some sort of peace within himself and let these demons be set free.
Healing doesn’t happen overnight even though it’s hard, Noah had the help from a certain friend with the potential of turning into something more.
This is Noah’s and Gideons Story!
The slow burn , chemistry and the connection that these two share are raw and honest. Together they both needed to heal and recover their addictions before being able to reunite and truly be together.
Rate: 4/ 5 stars
My first Anne Malcom book and I gotta say I loved her writing. What sold me on reading this book was falling in love with the cover… like it’s pure perfection! And then finding out it was an MM romance… yup, that hooked me. But I probably should have read the whole series first, don’t get me wrong you can definitely read this as a standalone, however I think it would have been more special to have read the other books first. I think I would have connected a lot more with the characters, and it’s always amazing to see their whole journey and then get to the end and watch them get their well-deserved HEA.
Anyway, I definitely plan to read this whole series and then reread this book. I am super curious about all the other couples of the Unquiet Minds band and they seem to have had some epicly emotional stories and I just gotta read them. One thing is for sure though, I might not have read any of the other books but the love this family has for one another was FELT and that’s another reason why I’ll definitely be reading the whole series.
When it comes to Noah, he’s a deeply broken man that hides behind his lies. He’s a true friend that is always there when his friends need him but won’t let the opposite happen because no one knows his real struggles. So when his secrets come to light, it rocks the band’s world and forces Noah to face his nightmares.
He meets Gideon while they are both facing and working through their demons and they help each other in doing so… and they fall hard for one another. But life isn’t easy nor simple and these two want to get healthy and work on themselves before they give their relationship a go. I loved these two together. They showed amazing strength and willpower.
Censoured Soul is an emotional MM romance that portraits deep subjects, a beautiful love between family and forgiveness of oneself and others. It was definitely a tear-jerker from time to time, specially when Noah and Gideon are sharing their truths and when you feel how much love this family has for one another and how what happened has affected them all.
Anne Malcom’s words dig deep in the souls of her characters and bring back the most raw, real and painful emotions to torture her readers. Censored Soul was no exception. An absolutely unique, inspiring and heartbreaking love story that left me thoroughly messed up.
Noah has been the rock and support centre of his friends from their band. But his own heart is a dark dark place. It is filled with traumatic past, guilt, shame, feeling of total helplessness and utter numbness. He drowns them in mindless sex with faceless men and dangerous addiction. Till the day it all came crashing back and his wounds are exposed to his friends who are more like his family. And he goes to rehab. Not to cure. But to punish himself. And he meets a man. A man who is fighting own battle with addiction but is a glowing source of light and hope and love for his soul.
Noah is a good man trapped in bad memories and worse remnants of his tortured life. I loved how the author concentrated more on the psychological connection between Noah and Gideon. Both are vulnerable. Both are self destructive. Both hide behind their faulty coping skills. Noah pushed every one away as he thought he does not deserve love and kindness. But Gideon took his walls down by his persistent, unconditional and heartfelt companionship. The chemistry is so intense and mesmerizing. Their connection is full of pain, suffering and negative thoughts. But they make each other better. And together they will become a whole but a bit cracked life.
Love is not always flowers and hearts. Love is messy, complicated and embracing the darkness. Anne Malcom’ s Censored Soul is the riveting and gripping story of such an honest and life changing love.
Received ARC for Honest review
Noah, oh Noah, my heart just ached with his struggle! Noah does not feel worthy of love or even friendship. He’s lucky that the people he calls family and who call him the same, love him unconditionally. He has messed up… who hasn’t? The unworthiness Noah struggles with is something I think most will relate to even if not on the same scope as Noah. In every book in this series I have come to understand the meaning of the band’s name, Unquiet Minds, they all have their own. I felt Noah’s a little sharper than the others. It sliced my heart open and I seriously bleed tears for this character.
Anne Malcom gives me something that no other author gives with every book, a piece of her soul, her heart. I can feel it in every single novel. Censored Soul was brutal and honest. It was blunt and real. Something I feel the author portrays in every novel but they’re always in different ways. I commend Miss Malcom for putting so much of herself in her work. It FEELS personal. I’d be shocked if this author wasn’t a closet poet. Her words feel like double-edged swords cutting right into the heart of everything. Anne Malcom’s words are precise, genuine, emotional, and fervent… if it’s an inner conflict, she’s tackled it with merciless honesty.
I received an ARC of this book with the hope that I would leave an Unbiased Opinion. I was not required to leave a review, positive or otherwise, and my opinions are just that… my opinions.