From bestselling author Ella Fields comes an all new standalone. An emotional new adult romance that proves love is worth fighting your demons for.Toby Hawthorne was an enigma.One I didn’t factor into my college plans.I wasn’t looking for love.I wasn’t not looking for it either.And in that state of in-between, he found me.Unaware of the battle he fought everyday, I fell fast. By the time I found … fought everyday, I fell fast.
By the time I found out, it was too late.
Because I wanted everything.
Every broken, lost part of him.
I knew I couldn’t fix him.
I could only love him.
But I should’ve known better than to think that was enough.
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Ella Fields you have completely blown my mind yet again with your words. seriously people once you read one of ella bosky are hooked..
Toby and Pippa there are so many words i could say for those two,when we were first introduced to them in suddenly forbidden i knew that there story was going to be an emotional rollercoaster and this book was but wow just wow!!! you laugh, cry scream at the pages and want to throw your kindle some points in a good way lol but it was so worth it all…
thank you ella for talking about subjects that are hard and also on mental health which it is and can be hard to read and i bet to write but the way you do helps so much and understanding it all.
congratulations on another amazing book seriously one of my fav reads of 2018 so far <3
ELLA FIELDS…ELLA FIELDS…ELLA FIELDS! WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO ME?!?! BITTERSWEET ALWAYS Melted my Heart and Blew it to Smithereens BUT Fused it Back Up bittersweetly!! I’m a Huge Fan of Ella’s Books and this By Far has Taken me Heart & Soul!
Pippa and Toby’s story has been Beautifully written and it has All the Feels you Want in a Book. But also deals with Mental health illness which is a very sensitive subject however Ella delivers it very carefully with respect. I love how she combines the issues with friends and family alike. The characters themselves have so much Chemistry between the two and Compassion with complex feelings.
Toby is So drawn to Pippa like a Moth To A Flame but is worried that his condition will get in the way. But he follows his heart which has a mind of its own and he seems to always want to keep touching her in some ways to feel close.
Pippa is such a STRONG girl and so independent that seems to have no filter! A real spitfire attitude and seems to be attracted to Toby but doesn’t understand why since he is a Jock; which she has no interest in Sports.
I don’t want to give any spoilers because this Book is NOT for the Faint of Hearts since it deals with sensitive subjects. BITTERSWEET ALWAYS is an Suspenseful Emotional Rollercoaster Ride of Raw Emotions with Twists & Turns that will leave you Speechless AND Upside-down!! At times, you might wanna throw your Tablet across the room and Yell at the characters themselves!!
THIS IS A MUST READ BOOK AND Guarantee you…You are Not going to Put This Book Down!! From the Very beginning, you wanna know what is going to happen NEXT!! HANDS DOWN 5 PLUS STARS!!!
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“Let me touch your lips with mine.”
Surprisingly, she didn’t protest, just exhaled a light breath that ghosted over my lips and chin. Her breath was minty, and I leaned forward slowly, giving her a chance to back away while praying to every god that ever existed she wouldn’t.
Her lashes fluttered even more, and my hand found her cheek, my thumb running over the curve gently, memorizing it. “Why am I letting this happen?” she asked, our lips a hairsbreadth apart.
“Because it’s supposed to.”
She closed the gap, her hands lifting to my hair at the same time her lips landed on mine.
It was sensory explosion, and my eyes shut. Even though I was dying to watch her, I couldn’t fucking handle it.
At the soft whisper of her bottom lip against my top one, shadows that once danced behind my eyelids fled, making way for rainbows of blinding light.
This Song Reminds me of Pippa & Toby
Little Big Town’s “Better Man” lyrics by Taylor Swift
I know I’m probably better off on my own
Than lovin’ a man who didn’t know
What he had when he had it
And I see the permanent damage you did to me
Never again, I just wish I could forget when it was magic
I wish it wasn’t four am, standing in the mirror
Saying to myself, you know you had to do it I know
The bravest thing I ever did was run
Sometimes, in the middle of the night, I can feel you again
But I just miss you, and I just wish you were a better man
And I know why we had to say goodbye
Like the back of my hand
And I just miss you, and I just wish you were a better man
A better man
I know I’m probably better off all alone
Than needing a man who could change his mind at any given minute
And it’s always on your terms
I’m hanging on every careless word
Hoping it might turn sweet again
Like it was in the beginning
But your jealousy, I can hear it now
You’re talking down to me like I’ll always be around
You push my love away like it’s some kind of loaded gun
Boy, you never thought I’d run
Sometimes, in the middle of the night, I can feel you again
But I just miss you, and I just wish you were a better man
And I know why we had to say goodbye
Like the back of my hand
And I just miss you, and I just wish you were a better man
A better man
Better man
I hold onto this pride because these days it’s all I have
And I gave you my best and we both know you can’t say that
You can’t say that
I wish you were a better man
I wonder what we would’ve become
If you were a better man
We might still be in love
If you were a better man
You would’ve been the one
If you were a better man
Yeah, yeah
Sometimes, in the middle of the night, I can feel you again
And I just miss you, and I just wish you were a better man
And I know why we had to say goodbye
Like the back of my hand
And I just miss you and I just wish you were a better man
We might still be in love, if you were a better man
Better man
Oh Ella!!! This book was something else! And I mean that in a GREAT way!!! Short version of this review is:
Its a great story with a lot of feels and written by someone who KNOWS how to pull all those feels out of you! Go buy it now!
The longer, rambling version of this review is:
Let me preface this by saying that I have personal experience with a bipolar family member, and there is no borderline to it…. she can get off the charts!
This story of Toby and Pippa was one that I was really looking forward to. Toby has a mental illness and falls for Pippa. Pippa has a bad experience with men suffering from mental illnesses. When she got together with him she was unaware that he has problems. But when she found out, THAT was when the true story began. That’s when you got to the heart of the story. This was a story about a young couple who had severe issues and instead of running away, they worked together to make their relationship work! They do encounter some problems along the way, and reading about the way they “handle” them is great.
As for the feels….. this one had them all for me… all except for anger. As much as I wanted to be mad at Toby for some of his behavior, I just couldn’t! Don’t get me wrong, I did not agree with the way he handled some situations, but I just couldn’t bring myself to be ANGRY at him. My empathy for Pippa ran deep! I pretty much felt everything that she felt. The love, the heart break, the fun, the heat, the feeling of going a little crazy herself when she wasn’t getting answers. The only thing I never felt was her anger (and that goes back to I couldn’t get mad at Toby…most likely due to personal experience). Ella wrote a fantastic story of love and mental illness from both point of view in a spectacular way. To write something like that from both sides would take A LOT of talent and I would think was pretty consuming and draining. But here it is, and absolutely fantastic! I cried more than once!!! Ella is the master of making me cry! I have shed tears while reading every single one of her books! There were also a few curve balls thrown at you that I am hoping end up coming out with their own stories in the future. But if Ella Fields writes it, I will always read it! She is definitely a one-click author for me!
Writing a review for a book like this is always hard, particularly because I don’t think I can ever convey how great it was. Fields has created beautifully flawed characters, took an incredibly emotional topic and did this story justice.
I find myself being drawn to books that highlight the highs and lows of life and love. Toby and Pippa’s story did so wonderfully. Both characters were strong and resilient, there was this beautiful vulnerability with how they were written. You can’t help but to connect to them instantly. Their relationship is heartfelt and intense and I really think that this will resonate with so many readers.
I know I’ll be repeating many other reviews in saying that this story was amazing, and they’re right, it is. It’s also important and profound. Thank you Ella, for writing a story that portrayed the hardships of mental health so well, that it left me in tears.
I finished this book days ago and I am still processing how I feel about it . Ella’s writing as always is beautiful and she is not frightened to write about subjects that people don’t want to deal with.
Mental health and all it brings is incredibly hard to write but Ella absolutely nailed it. It was emotional , heart wrenching and written with such sensitivity I cried for an age. I have to admit I didn’t think I could finish this book but only because it brought up so many personal emotions and memories that I couldn’t read it through my tears.
I loved loved Pippa and Toby’s journey together that I couldn’t not finish this beautiful book which I found very cathartic!
Such an incredible story. Toby & Pippa travel down a path many have only heard about but never experienced. Ella Fields portrays a genuine, heartfelt story about the challenges, stigmas, emotions all encompassed on a topic most feel uncomfortable discussing. Toby, although hesitant, finds a true connection with Pippa and learns that he can trust her unconditionally. Pippa, having experienced this with her father, is hesitant to build a relationship with Toby but soon realizes that Toby is so much more than his condition. Love and heartache, happiness and rage, unconditional and conditions all are intricate parts of this incredible love story. The pages could not fly by fast enough as I consumed every breathtaking word and climbed to the end of an unforgettable journey.
I’ve been sitting here for an hour trying to come up with the right words to say how I feel about this story. And maybe those words will come to me at some point. But, I don’t think anything that I can come up with will even touch the surface of being able to describe how immensely beautiful Bittersweet Always is. Ella Fields really has outdone herself by creating just a spectacular masterpiece with Toby & Pippa’s story. I just love these characters so much, and I know they will always hold a small piece of my heart.
If I could rate this book with a million stars I would.
There are a plethora of reasons that people read books or what it exactly is they are searching for when they read a book. It could be the cadence in the authors writing style. It could be the subject matter. It could be to remind them of a certain memory. It could be to escape. The reasons are infinite. Yet, good or bad they leave us with a feeling. It might not always be a good feeling but for that moment it elicited an emotion of some sort. This book invoked all of that and so much more. I will not lie, this book, had me loving it, hating it, loving it… until the very end when I truly LOVED it. I read very fast, but I had to stop myself and re-read several sections twice. I needed to process all my feelings. This book made me feel bipolar. I had my feelings of jubilance and then I had my heart crushed by what felt like a two-ton boulder. This author took me on a journey that transcended anything I thought I was going to experience.
There seems to be a certain stigma associated with mental health. Too often it is brushed under the rug and not talked about or it is misunderstood. It is a shame. This book touched so very close to home for me. My son deals with many of these same issues and I used to struggle with why he cannot make his mind stop. The author illustrated how this affects people. Not only from the person who must live with someone with a mental illness and the ramifications that come with it but also with the actual person living with the debilitating disorder itself. She didn’t sugarcoat it. She didn’t make it something it wasn’t she was on point and portrayed it with such clarity and grace that it made me clutch my heart.
Pippa. Sweet holy hell this girl. I knew I loved her when we first met her, but those glimpses of a fiery, sassy, and strong girl were NOTHING in comparison to who we get in this book. She experiences so many ups and downs that she herself probably felt like she was living in the stages of a manic episode and the subsequent crash. Moments that she never knew when they would occur and feeling like her entire life was her walking on eggshells. I loved that she was steadfast and always sensing when Toby was teetering,
“You okay?” Long seconds ticked by before he answered. “Not right now, but maybe tomorrow.” He kissed my hair, inhaling deeply, “but even among the chaos, my soul will always recognize yours.”
Even when she was hurting, you could sense how much she cared, “ I forgive you for putting me through hell, for making me think the worst. What I can’t forgive is your silence.” When I desperately needed sound, no matter how low or infrequent the volume.”
Toby. Holy Mary, Joseph, Gabriel, and Jesus. This guy. He gives me all the shiny squirrel feelings. Anger, disillusionment. Frustration. Swooning. Fanning myself. Toby loved Pippa so unconditionally that it made my heart hurt.
“” You feel that?” I asked quietly. “Your heart?” “No,” I said, flattening her palm over the beating organ in my chest. “Your heart.” Don’t mind me as I am clutching my heart as it beats at double rhythm. I will be fin in a minute. I am not crying. You are crying.
I needed him to get better and I needed them back together like I need air to breath.
“No one would love her like I would. They wouldn’t know the shape of her heart, the texture of her skin, and the color of her smiles as vividly as I did.”
ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!?!?! The color of her smile?!?! The imagery of that line. Just send in the mortician now. I am dead. Cause of death, Ella killed me with love in its simplest form. All the beauty– Ugly warts, heartache, and all.
This book told a story that portrayed that love is anything but perfect. There must be a balance of sorts. There must be a darkness to the light, and pain to go with joy because without it we never get to have those moments where we can truly appreciate it or ultimately fight for it. It is in those defining moments that it becomes bittersweet.
I will also say there were a couple twists at the end that have me itching to have the next book in my hands ASAP. My interest was piqued in the first book but especially more with that hook from out of left field. Thank you again for all your words, Ella. I count down the days until your next release as if it was a Festivus miracle. Kudos on another stellar book. Move over Felix, you have been replaced.
Another Amazing story of Gray Springs University.
On Suddenly Forbidden, we read a little bit of Toby and Pippas story, and instantly felt in love with these wonderful characters, now in Bittersweet Always we dive deeply into their lives..
This a love story, a story of two people with real life issues, that are working hard with their own demons so they can finally be together and enjoy their love..
“You invaded something inside me the minute I saw you, and you haven’t left since.”
Toby, the handsome football player, that everybody loves and wants. his future was already planned, the school, the team, the friends, everything was great but nothing was settle, something will change his plans and someone will change him forever.. he is not ready to fight, but he knows he needs to face his demons, is the only way he can save himself to be with her forever…
“I knew you had your demons, Toby, and I know it’s got to hurt, but I never thought you’d let them hurt me too.”
Pippa, she is beautiful and smart, a great friend to have, and a strong heroine that fought hard for what she loved.. and what she loved was him.. her past memories keep bringing fear, somehow paralyzing her to help Toby with all her heart. but her love is the key to finally get rid of old wounds..
“No one would love her like I would. They wouldn’t know the shape of her heart, the texture of her skin, and the color of her smiles as vividly as I did.”
Bittersweet Always an emotional, beautiful story. We get to read about the struggles Toby has with some health issues that usually society doesn’t like to talk about..
I like how Ella writes about the subject with a lot of finesse, in a way you get to understand the feelings and frustrations of each character as well of the depth of this “illness”.. Toby is not the only one suffering, we also get to read and feel the desperation and need of the people who surrounds him,
the feeling of not knowing what to do or how to proceed in some of his episodes.. and thats one of the beautiful parts of Ellas writing. in each book you get to really put yourself in the characters shoes and understand what he or she is going through.. in Bittersweet Always is not the exception. I got to feel, the rage and desperation when Toby was having a hard time.. I also felt and cry all the emotions Pippa was feeling to see Toby suffering and not knowing how to help or what to do.. it was hard for Pippa not only because she was dealing with something she didn’t understand, even though she had some experience with her own father.. that kind of made her afraid. she didn’t want to live the same situations as her mother.. she didn’t want to live the same uncertainty and fear. but in the end her love was more powerful and that made her fought for him and his love until the end..
“But even among all the chaos, my soul will always recognize yours.”
You’re going to love, laugh and cry with these wonderful characters, not only with Pippa and Toby.. but also with Daisy, Quinn, Callum, Renee, Derek and many more.. all of them great friends and support .. I hope we get to see more glimpses of them on the next books..
I cant wait for Callum and Renee story!!!!!
Every time I read an Ella Fields book she blows me away and I am so happy that Bittersweet Always does that and even more. Ms Fields does a great job depicting the pain of college and being on your own with a real struggle with mental illness and how that impacts everyone around you. So the combination of both is a recipe for an excellent story – oh and dont forget the romance as well.
Toby is a star on the football field – the problem is that he lets his temper and emotions get the better of him. As Toby struggles to control his mind he meets the beautiful Pippa. She is everything he didnt know he wanted until that first kiss. Now as his football career starts to unravel he is doing everything he can to told on to his relationship with Pippa until he loses both.
Pippa didn’t want to fall for Toby – between his ego and reputation as big man on campus she knew he was trouble. The more she gets to know him however she realizes there is so much more to Toby then meets the eye. As Toby struggles with his demons Pippa struggles to keep him, can she?
I loved meeting Pippa and Toby in the first book in the Gray Springs University series in Suddenly Forbidden. So we knew there was something going on with Pippa and Toby we just didnt have the details – and now we do and so much more. Told in dual POV’s and in parallel with Suddenly Forbidden (love this by the way) we get to have a front-row seat to Toby’s struggles that is so real that it left me in tears on more than one occasion. We also get to see how Pippa handles her situation and see her feelings grow. This story is about love, loss and really, more importantly, redemption and the journey of who you are going to be at the end of it all. I loved every step along the way.
This is not only an excellent story but I think an important one – mental illness is part of millions of peoples lives in some way shape or form and the more we talk about it the shame diminishes even more. I admire Ms Fields for going there in Bittersweet and to help move this more into the light of day.
Bittersweet Always was nothing like I thought it was going to be. After meeting Toby in Suddenly Forbidden, I’ve been desperate to read his story. I knew he had issues but I never expected his story to be such an emotional one.
Toby’s behaviour and thinking can be quite erratic and manic so when he spots Pippa and he feels a quietness that’s rare for him, he’s determined to win over the woman who’s caught his eye. Toby is such a wonderfully complex character. While he’s not broken he’s definitely a little bent out of shape. When he’s having a good day, he’s fun and sweet, he’s the kind of guy you’d love to spend time with but when he’s low he’s self destructive and can’t find a way out of his head. I really got the feeling of how mentally and emotionally draining it must be to live day to day while trying to deal with it all.
I loved Pippa. Having dealt with her own troubles in her past, she’s a surprisingly strong woman who says what she thinks and has a fierce attitude. She never had any intention of falling for Toby but love had other ideas. To be honest I don’t think anyone else but Pippa could handle Toby. For every high there’s a low and Pippa is just stubborn enough to stick them out.
Like I said at the start I was desperate for Toby’s story and I was hooked from the start. There was a point where the story seemed to slow down but then it picked back up again and I couldn’t stop reading even if I’d wanted to.
I adored Toby. My heart broke for not only him but Pippa too and I thought Ella Fields dealt with a very sensitive subject in a very well thought out and sensitive way. She managed to get the balance right between the highs and the lows, the despair and the hope, the regrets and strength of character it takes to try and accept help, the effects things have not only to the people who are going through it but also their loved ones and friends. This really is an amazing story with fantastic characters that I definitely would recommend.
We’ve returned to Gray Springs!!! And it was with an emotional punch to last a lifetime and I LOVED every minute of it! Ever since reading Ella’s novel, SUDDENLY FORBIDDEN (which I HIGHLY recommend everyone reads) (where we first met both Toby Hawthorne and Pippa James), I was instantly intrigued with their story and HOPED beyond hope, that Ella would write it. So when she announced BITTERSWEET ALWAYS, I was over the moon and anxious to dive in! Their story just had to be told and Ella couldn’t have done a better job. I was utterly blown away by how elegantly she wrote this powerful story and I applaud her for taking the chance on writing a story that revolves around mental illness. That is no easy feat and I have to say, she portrayed it masterfully! Ella handled it with such attention and detail that I know many readers around the world will be able to relate to Toby and Pippa’s story. I, personally, connected with this story on a deeper level and was pulled in an emotional rollercoaster while reading it. I laughed, I cried. My heart was broken and put back together. #AllTheFeels Ella was not holding back any punches when it came to this story. She made the reader FEEL every emotion, every internal battle. I felt it ALL. Even Toby’s nickname for Pippa, “Pip-squeak” hit me on a deeper level because that was my childhood nickname!
“Loving him would always be bittersweet, but I knew then that the sweet would always outweigh the bitter.”
Toby is the most uniquely broken male character I’ve read, and Pippa is my “soul sister”. I LOVED them both to pieces! Their love story was explosive and not easy. But isn’t that how true love stories are supposed to go? Life has its ups and downs and Toby and Pippa sur experienced that early on, but it made their love stronger in the end.
“You know my soul, and I know yours. There’s no coming back from that. There’s no removing you from me. I’ve tried, and it’s futile.”
This story was about that once in a lifetime love. It was about accepting that it is okay to have bad days. That doesn’t mean everyday will be bad. Tomorrow can be better. It was about not being a prisoner of your “shortcomings”. It was about finding someone to quiet the storm and to also live with you within the storm. All in all, it was a story about soul mates. This book was PURE PERFECTION and I can’t properly express HOW MUCH I loved it. I truly couldn’t be happier with how their ended. #IWant2SnuggleWithToby Ella did an extraordinary job telling their story and deserves more than 5 stars!
“Always. What I feel for you is beyond love. It’s vast, endless, and it’ll always hold me prisoner.”
10 “More Than Okay” Stars!
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The author’s note alone sets into motion the heartache you know that will come with this story. Mental health is a tough issue, but Ella Fields conquers it with grace and poise giving us a story both heart-wrenching and heartwarming. I fell in love with Toby Hawthorne and have the deepest sympathy for him too. His struggles are real – his mind and thoughts constantly moving. He has good days and bad. His torment brought me so much sadness. But he is also sweet and charismatic, fun and devoted. In Pippa James he’s found something he didn’t even know he was looking for. Pippa is so strong and understanding. Someone you would want in your corner. She’s smart and sassy and super supportive of those she loves. For Pippa, Toby was unexpected and I loved the natural development of their relationship. The writing is strong, painting a picture so easily seen and felt. As the story progresses, my heart raced through a million emotions. It’s a journey I’d gladly take again. I can’t wait to read what she comes up with next.
OH MY!!! Ella has outdone herself on this one. I have loved everyone of her books in their own way but this one is my hands down FAVORITE!!! I may eat my words on this one day as I know she will be writing more beautiful words in the future.
I can’t tell you how long I had a serious UGLY cry when reading this that I had to stop, even though I wanted to power through, to clear up my eyes. Toby and Pippa are I just have no words how much I loved them.
I am at a loss of words to give this book justice in a proper review. My heart was bursting and breaking throughout the book.
Ok I will stop rambling but this book was AWESOME and I can’t wait for everyone to read this and if you have not read any of her other books, you will be in for a treat when you do.
Wow! What an amazing story, Ella has done it again. Her writing is perfection, here characters are so real and so relatable and the story just flows and gets you hooked from beginning to end. I was waiting for this story ever since Suddenly Forbidden and it did not disappoint.
Toby and Pippa’s story is one of the best I read this year. So real, so emotional, I felt the love, the desperation thru the pages. It broke my heart, with every page it just kept shattering to little pieces but in the end it glued them back together. I cried like a baby, why? Well this story hit a bit close to home, it felt so real. I admire Ella for doing a story that has Mental Health Problems in characters, they are always hard to view in real life and having a character go thru them just gives you a bit of insight of what might feel like. Pippa is such a strong girl, having seen her mom go thru so much with her father and his battle with depression she really never though that she will go thru it too.
Toby, a man with a purpose; football. But when Toby meets Pippa he just can’t stop thinking about her. Their chemistry is explosive and she calms his mind. But will his mind and scatter thoughts be able to quiet down in order to see Pippa and let her love in. You can’t help who you fall in Love with and this two are about to go thru so much heartbreak, love and self discovery, but at the end it will make them stronger.
Everyone need to read this story. Is such an emotional ride, but you see the light at the end of the darkness.
5 amazing starts
*i read an advance copy and this is my honest opinion.
Absolutely loved! I don’t know what more I can say! This book was so good and I was in love with Toby and Pippa. Their like my new favorite book couple! This was so raw. real and emotional. It made you stop. think and listen. The love between these two was awesome. Loved everything about this book!
Oh my gosh, Ella has done it again! I absolutely adore this author and her writing is impeccable.
I couldn’t gush and praise anymore than I did when I read Suddenly Forbidden and couldn’t wait to read Toby and Pippa’s story next. I was so hyped and so ready for this story, and let me tell you, this series has been imprinted in me for a long time.
Books that have real life triggers are my type of books because these are things that actually happen to people in real life.
Ella has such a beautiful style of writing, her books will consume you, you will find yourself completely entranced with her stories. Every single book I’ve read from her have been a 5 star or more for me because her books are just that good!
Toby and Pippa’s story was a beautifully written story about a boy with issues, flaws and was broken. Pippa and Toby sure had one thing in common and that was having a parent that was absent in their lives. They shared such a great bond and even though that little spitfire gave him one hell of a ride at the beginning, she definitely fell hard for him in an instant. I loved Toby’s determination, he was relentless when it came to pursuing Pippa and in the end he won. Now to try and keep her was the one main thing, how was he going to get a girl to stick by him with his issues?
I can’t express anymore than what I’ve already have about how wonderful this author is. I love her and can’t wait to read more from her.
Bittersweet was another riveting read that will stay with me for a LONG TIME!!
5 Bittersweet Stars
5 GRACEFUL BITTERSWEET STARS!! Ella Fields is such a graceful author with her words. She can take a sensitive subject and turn it into a beautiful story. Toby and Pippa story is tough, but will touch your heart with all the feels. Their story had my smiling, crying, mad and OMG moments. This series has been phenomenal and this is my favorite book ever by this author. Please do yourself a favor and 1-click this book. I voluntarily reviewed an advance reader copy of this book.
5 “More than okay” Stars!!!!!
“I want you to breathe me, to inhale to thoughts of me, and for you to exhale anything that stops me from overtaking every part of you. I want …” “To do to you exactly what you’ve done to me.”
I’m saying this right here, right now. Toby Hawthorne has cemented himself deep down to the narrow of my bones as one of my most favorite Hero’s ever written.
There are absolutely no amount of words I can write to do this book justice. None. Zero. Zilch. My words will pale in comparison to Ella’s. Her words. My gosh her words. They weave and seep and live in the depths of all of you. Everything. You feel every single emotion when reading her books. Her stories, they take a hold of you that there’s nothing you can do but be consumed. Reading Ella’s words is an experience. It’s intoxicating and it’ll leave you wanting more.
Bittersweet Always is a book packed to the brim with emotions. It’ll have you smiling and feeling giddy, but then it’ll have you clutching at your chest. You will hurt and most definitely cry. This story is raw and so real. Bittersweet Always is a book that’ll touch your soul on such a deep level and leave a permanent mark on your heart.
Ever since Toby was introduced in Suddenly Forbidden I knew he would be a character I would never forget. I wanted more of him. I desperately needed his story. I was patiently, not so patiently waiting for his and Pippa’s book. And now that I’ve read their story, it’s one that’ll always hold a special place in my soul.
“Kissing Toby felt like more than kissing. It felt like I was being burned, slowly incinerated until I thought I’d burst.”
Pippa was a character that stole my heart. She was everything good. She had the most purest heart. The way she puts others above herself showed just how selfless she is. Her caring way in being there for Toby no matter what, spoke volumes. But sometimes it wasn’t enough, and in so it was heartbreaking.
“You invaded something inside me the minute I saw you, and you haven’t left since.”
Toby was a character that broke my heart, but at the same time healed it. Reading how he lived with mental health and how he tried dealing with it was difficult. The demons that live within his head have Toby self-destructing. Doing things he wouldn’t normally do, only to try and find relief. Though the one person who can somewhat quiet the storm living within his head and calm him, is Pippa.
Pippa and Toby were two characters that’ll put you through the ringer. You will experience the lowest of lows, but also the highest of highs. Their love is unlike any other. They’re beautifully imperfect, but their souls are perfectly made to love the other. Pippa and Toby captured my heart and I don’t want it back. I will never forget these characters or their story. They’ll forever live in my heart.
“But even among all the chaos, my soul will always recognize yours.”
Ella. Oh Ella, Ella, Ella. I thank my lucky stars the day I came across Corrode. Since reading that book you automatically became one of my top favorite authors. And I am so grateful because my life would be incomplete without your words. I can’t wait for everything else you write. I’m almost positive those books will also be my favorite just like Bittersweet Always and all your other books before that.
HIGHLY, HIGHLY, HIGHLY RECOMMEND THIS BOOK AND ALL OF ELLA’S BOOKS!!!!!
Ella Fields has done it again. Nobody try to talk to me right now, I’m trying to process. Good heavens I just don’t know how much more my heart can take. I thought Suddenly Forbidden was all the things, Bittersweet Always takes those things and screwed them up and chucked them out the window. I have no feels left to give, Ella has stolen them with her words. Ella’s writing is flawless and captivated me from the first chapter, I lost sleep, I just couldn’t put this book down, when I couldn’t keep my eyes open any more, I napped for a couple of hours and as soon as I woke up, I was straight back to this couple and their story. This book is one of those books that will stay with me for a very long time. This isn’t just a romance, this is an enlightening piece of work that can help people understand and accept. I loved the acceptance that came with this story – it was such a huge part of the storyline. It filled me with happiness to see such a difficult subject handled with such grace, respect, and care. My hat goes off to Ella. Ella, thank you for writing this book, thank you for showing Toby and Pippa’s strength. Mostly, thank you for not shying away from this subject matter and doing it justice.
This book is filled with characters you can’t help but love. We see Daisy and Quinn from Suddenly Forbidden, and it was so cute seeing their relationship from Pippa and Toby’s eyes – if you didn’t read SF because the cheating element was too much for you, rest assured you can pick up there story here and know what happens without the nitty gritty of it all. Callum, swoon, I still love him, I really hope his story is next. Toby Hawthorne is one of those characters you can’t help but love and root for. He is sweet and charming, but he also has demons, he doesn’t always handle things correctly, and at times he frustrated the hell out of me, but I could also understand his actions too. His strength has no comparison. Pippa James, my girl! She freaking rocks! Her strength is astounding, I loved her so much. She was feisty and independent, she stood her ground when she needed to. When she loves, she loves with her whole heart.
I loved the relationship between Toby and Pippa, it was filled with acceptance and understanding. They had their ups and downs for sure, and sometimes it was hard to watch the difficulties they were going through. At times I was shouting at my kindle, begging them not to do something… or to do something. And that’s what makes this such an amazing read, that it can have me shouting, and crying, and sometimes even chuckling. I just couldn’t put it down. I can’t stop thinking about it. I think this just became my favourite book of 2018.
The cover for this book, sheesh, have you seen it? It’s beautiful. I have to say, I think this and the cover for Suddenly Forbidden are two of the best covers I’ve ever seen. I’m going to need to get them on my shelf.