SILASMy home is my sanctuary. Or is it my prison? Some days it’s hard to tell.I’ve confined myself behind these walls for protection. I have my reasons, but that doesn’t change the profound loneliness I’ve discovered in the process.Then one day I find myself drifting toward the window to see him. Corey Marshall, my new neighbor. Quiet, reserved, and cute as can be. He infects my thoughts, becomes … as can be. He infects my thoughts, becomes the image I fantasize about.
I want to taste his lips, smell his scent…feel what it’s like to be inside him.
And soon, watching becomes exchanging gifts and messages, which becomes so much more.
It’s wrong to want this as badly as I do, but I can’t help myself. I crave him so desperately. It’s hard to tell if what we’re doing is going to make me lose my mind or change my entire world, but it’s too late to turn back now…
COREY
I’ve never been quite right. Too high or too low. Pain is my constant companion…at the hands of my abusive ex, and often from myself. The sweet relief is only temporary, but in those moments, it’s like I can finally breathe.
Then I meet him. Silas Rizner calms the chaotic storms inside me. He makes me feel loved, treasured, even when I don’t deserve it. I cherish the moments we share–cooking, cuddling, and when Silas reads to me until I fall asleep. When he’s inside me, it’s the only time in my life I’ve ever felt complete.
Silas becomes the glue that holds me together, that bandages my scars. Inside the walls of his home, we’re almost safe, but our demons are always there, waiting to break free.
We’re a mess. We’re broken, chaotic, beautiful; we’re in love.
But not even love can slay our monsters. No, only we can do that.
Unless our monsters destroy us first.
TRIGGERS: Self-harm, depression, anxiety, mentions of past domestic violence.
*While the sexual situations depicted in Beautiful Chaos are imperative to the characters’ development throughout the course of the novel, readers are advised to peruse the “Dear Reader” letter at the beginning of the book to help them make an informed decision about whether this particular story will be to their tastes. This letter can be viewed in the downloadable sample or by using the “Look Inside” feature found on the title’s product page.
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This is a very hard book to review, as it was a great story, but it was dark, and it was hard to see how these two very broken MCs were going to be able to get better for themselves. There relationship was unhealthy in the beginning, but only due to the trauma each had endeared for themselves outside of their relationship. What I loved in the beginning was their budding friendship. It was great to see them become friends and to start to feel like they had someone else in their lives. I think this story made sense for them, but as I said, it was difficult to read. Honestly, I loved Corey, loved him from the beginning. I never really loved Silas; however, and that makes it difficult to truly love the book. I did like Silas and I felt so much for him. I cannot imaging how it would be to go through what he did and how I would react, but I just did not care for how he handled some of the physical aspects of his relationship with Corey. Corey was so broken and thought he was not worthy of love, and I felt Silas did not help this at times. This book is beautiful though, and at about the 85% mark it got very good. I wished we honestly got to see more of each of them getting better and what it was that helped them. It ended on a very hopeful note, and I would definitely recommend this read.
THIS WAS AMAZING I fell in love with Silas and Corey instantly. I loved the self-reflection they both had, sometimes their relationship turned too dysfunctional or unhealthy, but there were always able to see that.
This story was a painful, but also full of hope and lights. I loved everything about this!
Good story about mental health in two guys and how it affects them.
I’m having real trouble finding words to describe what this story made me feel. Everything I come up with seems too trite or pallid. After staring at my pc for far too long… I’m going to simply go with this:
Beautiful Chaos is the most amazingly beautiful, deeply moving and intense love story I have ever read. Both main characters are truly unique, shattered as they are, and the connection they forge is incredibly strong and soul-stirring.
Riley Hart and Devon McCormack bring us an inspiring love story and show us that love & light can be found even in the darkest of places.
Silas and Corey, both broken in their own way, find love and acceptance with each other, and the strength to reach out for help. In the end, love is a motivator for them, not a magical cure-all, though that was a painful lesson to learn. Corey and Silas are very brave in confronting their mental health issues and the demons lurking in their past & present.
I adored the wry humor they share and the little flights of fancy like the Potter felines that scamper about and play unlikely matchmakers. More than anything, I love how sweet and caring Corey and Silas are with each other, how attentive. Even when they are suffering, they never lose sight of what the other might need.
The care that went into this book is evident in each word and turn of phrase. I enjoyed every minute of reading it
Silas is trapped by agoraphobia. He watches the neighborhood and finds himself fascinated by his new next door neighbor. Corey has suffered from mental issues most of his life. When the two exchange notes they find a lot of common ground.
This book is super intense. The mental issues are handled with sensitivity and compassion. Negative behaviors are explored with dignity. The intensity is balanced with the romance. I enjoyed the journey the men were on and was satisfied by the end. Impeccably plotted and crafted. I highly recommend this book.