Author: lymcruz

Since my family and I were placed in witness protection, I always had a feeling that someone was watching me. That he was watching me. It was a tingling almost imperceptible sensation that constantly lurked as if my energy was being assaulted by someone else’s. Like how the magnetic field of the earth gets assaulted by cosmic rays from the sun. In the pit of my stomach, I knew something awful was … something awful was coming, just not what or when. These random thoughts tortured my mind, elevating primal fear, decreasing logic and self-control.It felt as though I was…

They always say beauty is in the eye of the beholder, but what happens when your brain is set on lying to you every time you look in the mirror? The thing about emotional pain is that it leaves invisible scars.No one sees them but you.No one feels them but you.But those scars can be traced by the gentlest of touch and I found that touch in the form of a man. He didn’t heal me, but his love … form of a man. He didn’t heal me, but his love changed me. The start of our relationship was ……

Flawed, I am.Cracks, I have and they run deep.But I refuse to accept that I’m damaged. Six years ago, I turned my life around; moved to a new country, and started from fresh leaving behind the demons and shame that once haunted me. Forgetting the worst moment of my life was impossible but without constant reminders, it was easy to pretend that it never happened. But then a man surfaced out of … happened. But then a man surfaced out of the ashes and awoke all those memories from where they’d been stowed. In an instant, the walls I built…