Honor. Courage. Commitment.Three things Jesse Carter has lost. A former Marine, Jesse used to stand proud of his achievements and live by the code. But when circumstance made him question everything he believed in, those most basic values didn’t feel so important after all.Sex. Lies. Knights Rebels.Three things Jesse Carter has found. Reborn into a brotherhood not so different from the one he … brotherhood not so different from the one he left behind, Jesse finds it all too easy to block out his past and claim the role as Rebels’ fun-loving player.
Until he meets Bell.
Shy, awkward, and with troubles of her own, Bell Johnson’s no stranger to hiding her pain. When Jesse forces himself into her life, she’s at risk of her defences crumbling.
Does Bell have the strength to survive Jesse and his demons or is she fated to become another casualty in the self-destruction of Jesse Carter?
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Jesse and Bell’s journey was turbulent, chaotic, and a little frustrating. Jesse was callous, mean, and fighting demons that was holding him hostage. They had chemistry but they pushed and pulled at each other. Bell tried to show her unconditional love but Jesse treated unfairly. Although this hard to read because of the back and forth, it kept me on my toes and held me captive till the end.
This was a close favorite from the series! This was such a beautiful and emotional one for me.
Jesse comes from an abusive father, a former Marine whith PTSD, but he does’nt realize it. So he plays it off by not taking life too serious. Until he meets Bell!
This was such a rollercoaster of emotions for me. I loved the story line, the characters, the drama, the action and the sweet love scenes.
I loved this book and it is a definite must read!
An emotional heart touching read! Storyline will have your attention from the beginning and pulls at the heartstrings. Hiding behind the easy smile and bold attitude Jessie suffers from survivors guilt and struggles with PTSD while loosing himself in women and booze to keep the darkness from overtaking him. Bell is different though. She’s innocent and sheltered living in the memory and shadow of her missing sister. She is someone he can’t forget and makes him want to be a better man. Their relationship starts out with just friendship but soon develops into more with passionate chemistry that rocks both their worlds. Both are perfect for each other because in their own ways they have been just existing and not really living. The storyline is packed with so many emotions and at times will leave you feeling as raw and intense as the characters. Totally love this authors writing style and would recommend.
Jesus, Joseph, and doggy-style Mary.
I think I may be sliding to team Jesse! Or maybe I can just make my own team . . . Team #NixJesse? I still flove you Nix, I swear!
So, I’ve been in a serious book funk for awhile now. Nothing has been measuring up and to be honest, I’ve tossed book upon book to my DNF pile for the last week or so.
So when I got River’s messaged to let me know Jesse had landed on my kindle, while I was over anxious, I was kind of a little nervous. That didn’t stop me from digging into it at 1am like a kid in a candy store! I mean seriously people, its River motherfuckin’ Savage!
I’m not exactly sure why I was nervous. River is a phenomenal author who pours her heart and soul into every book and trust me, you can feel every emotion that woman writes. From the thigh-clenching highs, all the way down to the raw, heart – in – a – blender lows and everything in between. Desertion is no exception.
As you know, or maybe you don’t, this is book #3 in the Knights Rebels MC series and is about fire fighter turned Marine turned bad boy biker Jesse (my newest hubby) and his sexy as hell nurse Bell.
I’d say you could probably get away with reading this as a standalone, but why would you want to miss out on getting your #NixFix and #SyHigh? You wouldn’t, would you? Didn’t think so, links are below
Firstly, I want to start with something that I just have to get off my chest because it’s been driving me freaking insane and well a good wifey defends her hubby, right?
I have read this book Twice now and Jesse never cheats!
Yes, he is indeed a manwhore who will happily fuck a different woman every night with no guilt. And honestly, he shouldn’t feel guilty. The women Jesse beds knows the score, he is a one night man. He never cheats on Bell. End of.
As for him being abusive. Oh hell to the motherfuckin’ No.
To the verbal abuse, Yes Jesse can be . . . . brutal with his words at times. But tell me, what person hasn’t been? The lead up to Jesse’s melt down is a major thing, so I won’t go into deal on why or what was said, but should he have spoken to Bell that way? No, he shouldn’t have. When you get a damaged, insecure, guilt ridden man and mix him with fear and alcohol (not using alcohol as an excuse, but come on, loose lips and all that) messes happen.
To the physical abuse. . . . He is a Marine who has vivid nightmares. It’s not actually stated, but it is clear he has PTSD. No one can control their actions and reactions during a nightmare. No one! Jesse works his ass off to redeem himself. So instead of jumping down his Momma Bear’s/creator’s throat about his actions, just take a chill pill, be a grown up and remember, this is a BOOK, if you don’t like it, close it and move on!
Okay, on to Jesse before I get all caught up in the drama.
Jesse . . . . My beautiful broken man.
Jesse is a total player and he makes that known from the start.
With his quick wit and cheesy as hell pick up lines, you can’t help but laugh your ass off while falling head over heels for this hotter than hell, dirty taking biker who’s 100w smile would have a Nun questioning her calling
But that’s just the tip of Jesse.
Jesse’s story is heart wrenching at times and I found my poor little heart breaking for him in many places. He has had a hard life, harder than most and it started at such a young age.
Having a strict, controlling, alcoholic father who makes it known he thinks he is a “screw up”, add that to his time served as a Marine and Jesse has been left pretty fucked up. He thinks he doesn’t deserve love, doesn’t deserve more than what he is getting now. So he finds comfort in masking his pain with his shocking humour, in his Knights Rebels family and between the legs of any and every available woman.
Until he meets #NurseBell.
She is shy, inexperienced, naive, and a damn bombshell of a woman. But don’t make the mistake of thinking she is weak, she is anything but.
After her sister Paige went missing, Bell’s world stopped. Her mother pulled the reins in, in an attempt to protect her and Bell followed along. Even when it become real unhealthy.
Just like Jesse, she is living only half a life. Work, home and occasionally out with her bestie Lissy, secretly of course, is all she does. She doesn’t date, doesn’t drink, doesn’t really socialize. She just exists.
The chemistry, banter, love with these two. . . . Insane!
Jesse wants one night with the sexy nurse who has got under his skin and has him breaking all his own rules. He doesn’t do friends, and he doesn’t chase. Well, he didn’t.
Bell doesn’t want to get mixed up with a man like Jesse, I mean despite sending her into a wanting frenzy the second he is near her and the sex appeal dripping from him, who really wants to be just a one night deal with the ultimate player when they are a “half” a virgin?
When Lissy tells her of the connections the MC have with helping abused women, Bell gets an idea that maybe Jesse can help her find her sister.
Jesse take this as his way “in” with her.
He never dreamed she could be the game changer, the one who could bring him his peace
She never thought that he could help her find herself in the process of finding her sister.
But has the manwhore of the Knights Rebels really handed his balls over to a woman, or are some demons too hard to let go of? Go find out!
In true River style, you will find yourself in a whirlwind of emotions. Desertion is about heartbreak, self forgiveness, acceptance, hope and of course, love.
Be ready for some annoyance, to laughing until you snort, cry not only sad tears but happy as well and heart wrenching sadness.
Let’s not forget, this is a River Savage novel, so you know her alpha’s and their women are going to get you all hot, bothered and trying to climb through the screen to happily take Bells place under Jesse.
Ok, so maybe that’s just be me trying to climb aboard Jesse lol what can I say, I proudly flove that man.
Now, onto the long wait to see which brother is up next . . . . Or Maybe Paige?
I really liked this book but I will say that Jesse acts like a jerk quite a few times. I totally got were he was coming from, and he never went to the point of unforgivable, but it was hard to read as he pushed Bell away and self destruct. I liked Bell I know she was shy and meeker but I liked that she was different and she was strong when she needed to be. She also grew a lot in this book. Jesse and Bell were cute together and I loved catching up with the other couples. I really liked the Paige story line and I hope to God River Savage writes Paige’s story cause I would eat it up. Also I really want Jesse’s friend Conner, the one that lost his legs in War to get a book. I was so intrigued by him. I thought he was sexy and super sweet, and I want his war hero ass to get a HEA just sayin’!
This is the third book of a series, and yes please read the others first. Jesse has met his match is Bell. This book is angsty. Bell and Jesse do not have a smooth ride. But, the ride is entertaining. This is a MC book, but this MC is on the right side of the law. Dual point of view. No cliffhanger. Beau is next!