Bonjour, my name is André Chevalier. It has been my joy and my great honor to help those who have lost their way. Not long after I began my journey, I met two such wounded souls.
Renata Koreman, my little mouse. She came to me as a child—shy, mute, injured… broken. It took oh-so many years to start to bring her back to herself! Yet, I could not fully heal her.
Years later, Grant Wilkinson, he … later, Grant Wilkinson, he too fell into my hands. The ex-Army Ranger was badly disfigured and saw himself as a monster. Isolated by secrets, solitary and self-contained, his colleagues affectionately named him ‘Frosty.’ Yet, how should one behave when besieged by a lifetime of confusion and guilt?
The moment I saw him, I thought of her and I wondered. The eyes, they cannot always see clearly. And the heart? Ah, the heart can only guess at the truth. So it was that I remained uncertain.
Could the mouse and the monster heal each other?
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This isn’t the telling of a story, in as much as it’s like watching the struggles of two people being guided by our beloved Andre’ Chevalier….Renata Koreman, just a child really when she came to him, mostly broken from a childhood of neglet & abuse, both pysically and mentally. .When she was 13, she and her foster brother Jamie ran away together, they lived on the street and slept in cardboard boxes, ate from trash cans, to her it wasn’t any different than living at home. She felt like she fit in with street people and felt “normal” for the first time in her life. She did enjoy sexual intimacy with many, she felt pleasure, affection and love. Jamie was her protector and best friend until one morning she woke to find Jamie dead beside her. Her Uncle Bob is called from a Psychiatric hospital about his niece , who will be 18 in three months, has been admitted. His friend , Doctor Jay Johson gave him Andre’s name. He will pay any amount to be rid of her. He is running for office and can’t have this embarrassment.
She is now 22 years old, has a degree in Psycology and works as a Sexual Surrogate that recieves payment for her Therapeutic servies. She has has worked with many refered to her by Andre’, but she wants someday to fall in love, have a home and children.
The second person I refer to is Grant Wilkinson, an ex-Army Ranger. He is badly disfigured and saw himself as a monster. He also carries aorund a lifetime of secrets and guilt that makes him isolate himself He is also an alcoholic, as was his father who is now dead. Drunk, he fell to his death. ..He left the Army on his 28th birthday and sought out Andre’ Chevalier five months later. He was highly recommended as one who helps people with deal with PTSD, stress and sexual problems…..Now, we know how smooth Andre’ is and his talent for getting to the heart of the matter, and so , over the coming months, sessions comsist of everything from hiking to camping and Grant opens up with Andre’s guidance and speaks of the games, the sexual abuse that went on at the hands of his own father. He speaks of the guilt & shame he feels for not protecting his younger brother when it started for him. His father committed the blackest of sins, but as a child,there was nothing he could do. After one such session, Grant felt mentally & physically beat, worn-out, but lighter somehow. Relieved, unburdened. Freed. In another session Andre’ brings up women. He learns that Grant has no experiwnce with women, they make him nervous, He has only had sex that he has paid for. Never a relationship.
Andre’, says “Mon ami”.. his dark eyes shine with enthusiasm. ” This is most auspicious. Oui, oui, most auspicious. I have exactly the perfect woman for you”
Now don’t go thinking that this is a boy meets girl kind of thing, they fall in love and live happily ever after……Oh hell no! there is so much more going on between the lines here and people I haven’t mentioned, on purpose. I never saw this coming, so you shouldn’t either! There is so much more to come….. Niiki, you went above and beyond with this one Girl!
I recieved this as a gift in return for my honest review. Too bad there’s only 5 stars!
Where to start?!?!
Grant- I just want to hug him, though I know that won’t go over well. He’s been through so much. I want to bundle him up and keep him safe.
Andre- Andre is very passionate, charismatic and also a complete enigma. I have a feeling everyone, I MEAN EVERYONE, falls in love with Andre. Our French therapist almost has an all seeing, all knowing quality about him. I think its impossible not to fall for him.
Renata- Little Mouse is a blooming flower now. She hasn’t fully reached her potential. Shes just spreading her petals but even now you can tell she will be breath taking.
Nikki Sex has an incredible knack for a back story. All will be revealed and boy is it disturbing while endearing you to the characters. I may have originally been put off by the multiple POVs but they are necessary, no matter how seemingly random, to complete the full picture.
I’m hesitant to continue because I know things are about to be ugly in the present i stead of just the past but I need to know what happens.
This books skips around in time a bit but if you pay attention there will be no issues. I really enjoyed listening to this book even though some of the situations were hard to hear. The abuse these people went through is heartbreaking and yet they find a man who is able to help them work through their problems and fears. This book leaves us with a bit of a hangover but luckily the next is already out so there will be ok wait!
What an amazingly beautiful book!! It starts out fairly straight forward but then delves deeper and deeper into the human condition – in this case the condition of Grant Wilkinson!!
Very thought provoking!!!
Highly recommended!!
I just love this series and the characters are woven so intricately together. Andre is just my absolute favorite. Thank you for a really great read, one that I could not put down til all hours of the night..by the way!
Abuse by Nikki Sex
Genres: Adult, Contemporary, Erotica, Romance, and a new category for me, Psychology/Mental Illness
?????Stars I have no clue what to rate this. I will decide…..Eventually!
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This book is broken down into 3 parts.
The 1st part is about ‘The Monster’, Grant, the male MC.
This part I loved. You really get into Grant’s head and he really digs his way into your heart.
The 2nd part is about Renata ‘The Mouse’, our female MC.
While I loved most of this, the last few chapters in her part have repetition & I abhor repetition. Her story will also get to you. The last few chapters though cost this story a partial star due to my abhorrence of the repetition I mentioned above. It slows everything down.
Up to that point the flow was great & moved beautifully.
The 3rd part is about both Renata & Grant. Their interaction with each other.
While I loved most of it, there is a lot more repetition and I did NOT like the way it ended. It felt …….. Contrived. Rushed. Awkward. I felt like there should have been another chapter and the whole conversation had an ‘Unfinished’ or ‘Unrefined’ quality to it.
The repetition and this last scene is what caused the most loss of stars.
This story is very ‘Mentally’ & emotionally weighty. It is compelling to say the least. While I would recommend it to my friends who love adult romance, I would be very careful to watch for triggers. There are a lot of them in this story.
Do not go into reading this book lightly!
I recommend you have a light, funny, fluffy story ready to read for when you are done with this. You will be ‘Perplexed’ (to steal a GR friends word), ‘Disconcerted’ and even ‘Bewildered’.
This story is ‘VERY’ complex. Psychologically Mind Bending.
It is definitely an adult read with intimate scenes. The subject matter and the triggers that this story deals with should not be in the hands of the immature. I will not put an age on that.
This ends on a cliffhanger & I forgot about that before I started reading it. I HATE CLIFFHANGERS!
I was going to wait a long time before I started reading the 2nd book in this ‘Trilogy’, but now that my brain has reset itself I have changed my mind. I will continue it in the near future.
Don’t say you haven’t been warned. This book with Scramble your Brain.
GoodReads bookshelves: adult, erotica, contemporary, romance
Not at all what I expected. Dark and twisty, with turns that will make your head spin. Really want to read the next book to see what happens.